MindPosted by Doomgriever Aug 31, 2017 01:25Now Listening To: Michael Nau - While You Stand
I have been away for a while. Taking a break from work more or less completely now (other than checking mail and so on).RANT:
I just need to think through things. I'm so fucking tired, exhausted, broke, autumn darkness looming over me, soon moving apartments and lots of prepping required..REALM:
Didn't get nearly as much sales the first month+ as I would have hoped, I mean we talk 1% or less.. Not that I thought it would be an amazing AAA selling hit! But come'on 200 sales? 200?
Taxes and what I get:
Steam + Trade Tax + Personal Tax = 72%. What is left for "me" is 28%.. What I mean by "me": There are plenty of expenses that goes into a company, server, software, domain, promotional costs, lunch, equippment etc..
I can tell you that 28% of 200 sales doesn't even count for a fraction of the cost that I've put into the game. Not to mention the ammount I've sadly had to borrow from friends and family.STRESS:
I've developed a stress symptom that comes and goes. A forcefull blinking tics. I keep blinking 3 times as often as normal, and not soft blinks, I press my eyes down hard. I have no control over it. It sucks, but I'm burnt out and overworked and I'm sure it'll go away after some vacation time... oh right I don't have the money :( GOG:
GOG (Good Old Games) turned down REALM, understandably so, but I thought I might as well give it a shot. No hard feelings, and they always write a kind e-mail about the good parts of the projects so that's nice. But that also means I have one less income source.
I did upload the project to itch.io however, gave me 1 sale! Wohoo! Thanks Owl-Turd-Comics guy, I can now buy myself 1 cup of noodles and a soymilk for my tea!
Hmm. I have a lot of game ideas that are on ice at the moment. I'm in no condition (health and financial) to begin a new project. At times I'm feeling like calling it quits. But at the same time I'm not healthy enough to get a normal 9-5 job. Insomnia, depression, adhd, social-phobia really narows down the search results for jobs... Also any kind of welfare are not possible for me, I've tried countless of times, I always fall between the chairs and never get help from them. So what now?
Now we wait for REALM to start rolling in traction a bit.If it does:
I'll get back to work, finish up the 3DRPG patch that I've started, and then begin next project.If it doesn't:
OtherPosted by Doomgriever Aug 25, 2017 01:50
Now Listening To: J.I.D - NEVER
Who am I kidding? I'm pretty much a raccoon already, nocturnal, dark circles around the eyes, eating only trash. #trashpanda
More in the link belowhttp://imgur.com/gallery/A6G5l
OtherPosted by Doomgriever Aug 21, 2017 15:38
DevelopmentPosted by Doomgriever Aug 07, 2017 22:15
Just wanted to share this review of This Strange Realm Of Mine.
It's really touching that someone spent so much time to write a review that long and well put. :) http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198146674484/recommended/655730/
Also, very happy they seemed to have understood many of the underlying thoughts about the game itself!
Also, it has rained (finally) for the last couple of days now!
Over and out!
MindPosted by Doomgriever Aug 02, 2017 03:27Now Listening to: Kirk Knight - FlexibleStatus:
Working 20-25% ish on 3DRPG. It's too damn hot / humid / bad air circulation to be able to work properly during days, so I mainly focus on working late evenings and nights. It's going fine, doing some small changes, re-write stuff. All in all I'm positive it's going to be a good change for the game. But in this pace, it's going to take forever!Anyways:
I fried some Tofu in super hot chili sauce, mixed with lettuce, tomatos, cucumber and made a spicy refreshing sallad (yeah you bet I drenched that shit in garlic dressing!). Chili works wonders on depression, highly recommend! The science:
When the body tries to deal with the Capsaicin, it
releases endorphins.The Pseudo-Science:
No pain no gain! ;) Get your ass out of that comfort-zone. What else?:
I googled some reviews for "This Strange Realm Of Mine
". I was pleasantly surprised it had a mention in "Rock, Paper, Shotgun
" and "Rely On Horror
". *Yay intensifies*
Where I live it's been a draught for weeks, groundwater reserves critical, no-watering-the-plants rules etc. Let there be rain again! No rain again? Oh no..This Strange Realm Of Mine: Rat's Poem - May
I think I'll go watch some Taboo now. Tom Hardy is damn good in that show!
Also, have to catch up with the new Rick & Morty season!
DevelopmentPosted by Doomgriever Jul 31, 2017 02:57Now Listening To: Brockhampton - Palace3DRPG:
Randomly generated voxel RPG. Basically you create your character, visit towns to recruit and gear up, explore worldmap, hunt food / cook it, fight monsters and look for treasure. Simple, but it is broken up into several different types of gameplay parts, so there are many many systems running in the background (I'll get to this in a sec).Reasons To Re-Visit:
There are some bugs and finding them is hard since I havn't touched the game in a year or two.
I had a bad HD crash where I lost the original, and the backup was 1 revision behind. So that was annoying.. Anyways.User Friendly:
The game is not user-friendly to PC gamers (Keyboard / Mouse). It's supposed to be played with controller, but even there some people had problems with **insert various different reasons**. And all of them are very valid (I'll also get to this in a sec). Also the Crafting menu and pretty much any menu are badly designed.CPU Heavy:
Want to cook eggs on your laptop? Now you can with this one simple trick, no V-sync and performance heavy game 3DRPG!
"Tadaa!"Unhappy With It:
I feel the whole idea and concept of it is... lacking? I need to re-think this.Other reasons:
Probably a ton of other reasons that I can't think of right now.Problematics:
Are you developing a game? If so, you might know how hard it is to get back into a project you've created years ago. For reasons like: you've grown as a programmer, software updates, you no longer have the projects code freshly in your memory. (If not, don't worry, just think of going back to school to do that history test you did as a 10yo. You're screwed if you're like me and have long since shredded any information I managed to cram into my head).Unity:
Has updated several times since the original release. Is this bad? Not at all, but it means some additional work. Old defunct features are gone, new ones to replace them. Etc.
Hehe. No for real. It took me a long time to muster courage enough to even take a look at "How bad is it? How much work? CAN I fix this? Is it worth it?" so on and yada-yada.
Re-Design: If I choose to re-design the majority of the game. It's going to take a while to get things up and running.. I don't even know where to begin really. I've started with the controls atleast. You have controls of a standard 3rd Person game, also in 1st Person you can actually look with your mouse ("Whaaaat?" *Mind-Blown* - Indeed.. It was because I played with controller before, and mouse was an afterthought).Other:
Ok so a few things before wrapping up. I did play the game recently. And as I've forgotten HOW to play it, I found it frustrating and annoying, unintuitive, you name it.
This is an issue that I at the time didn't notice as I got so used to play it "the correct way" (my way). But people were right, the game is clunky and controls are bad. I'll fix this.
Just kidding. Not even gonna talk release other than "autumn". It depends really on how deep this patchwork is gonna get. I havn't decided yet. But atleast I'll make sure this goddamn game is userfriendly, mouse-accessible, doesn't turn your PC into a bucket of lava and sooo on.
Phew. That was a lot of text. I'm off to bed (Hah who am I kidding?). I'm probably gonna watch GoT and try to ignore the looming anxiety that has creeped up on me this past days. (¬､¬)
MindPosted by Doomgriever Jul 31, 2017 02:21Now Listening to: Kendrick Lamar - PRIDEIntro:
Darkness is looming again. I love summer, but I hate the feeling of dread I get late in summer. It's pitch-black outside, autumn is slowly creeping in. With autumn comes darkness, cold, windy rainy days, and then my least desired time of the year, winter (which lasts for what feels like atleast ½ a year).
"But it's August, not even close to winter?" - That's what I'd like to feel, but the lump in the throat and deep-rooted feeling of anxiety is very convincing of the opposite.
GAD or Generalized Anxiety Disorder ( https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad.htm ), is a more or less constant feeling of anxiety, not connected to something specific. I'm medicated with SSRIs and helps (a lot) but I don't want to go too high in dosage as I feel claustrophobic by it's effect. So every now and then the anxiety spills over, especially during autumn / winter. Not so much during spring and early summer *So I Got That Goin For Me Which Is Nice
I don't know. I've slowly started to work again, but I'll update that in another post.