Now Listening to: Kendrick Lamar - PRIDE
Darkness is looming again. I love summer, but I hate the feeling of dread I get late in summer. It's pitch-black outside, autumn is slowly creeping in. With autumn comes darkness, cold, windy rainy days, and then my least desired time of the year, winter (which lasts for what feels like atleast ½ a year).
"But it's August, not even close to winter?" - That's what I'd like to feel, but the lump in the throat and deep-rooted feeling of anxiety is very convincing of the opposite.
GAD or Generalized Anxiety Disorder ( https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad.htm ), is a more or less constant feeling of anxiety, not connected to something specific. I'm medicated with SSRIs and helps (a lot) but I don't want to go too high in dosage as I feel claustrophobic by it's effect. So every now and then the anxiety spills over, especially during autumn / winter. Not so much during spring and early summer *So I Got That Goin For Me Which Is Nice - Meme*
I don't know. I've slowly started to work again, but I'll update that in another post.